Lately I’ve found that I’ve had to remind myself that, no matter how hard I try, I am not perfect. I am human. I make mistakes. Sometimes, I put things off or do them less than perfect. But what I have to keep reminding myself is that imperfection is alright. It is ok to make mistakes and even to put things off. I don’t need to make excuses when what I have put off is something I do for myself.
You see, I’ve found myself procrastinating. I’ve put off writing blog posts because of things that have come up in my life. After putting off so many posts, I started to believe that I should just give up on my writing because it’s already too late and what I was writing was pretty bad. In fact, I have several half-written blog entries which will probably never see the world outside of my computer.
But the other day as I was trying to find my way through Edmonton and getting completely lost, I realized that it didn’t matter. My writings are done for me. If other people like them, that is great but that is not why I write.
I need to erase my current attitude toward myself and restart with a new, better attitude. Preferably one which allows me to grow into the person who I wish to become.
So, for all you people who actually read this post, I am not getting rid of this blog and I’m not going to give reasons or excuses when I can’t update. What I am going to do, is update when I can regardless of whether I think it is a well written post. Because the only way I can grow in my writing is to actually write, regardless of if I write well.
You might not write well every day, but you can always edit a bad page. You can’t edit a blank page. – Jodi Picoult
*This post was written in response to the Daily Post’s writing challenge entitled “Starting Over”*